Am not exactly the most creative person alive. But, these are my innermost thoughts/wishes.

I have always wanted to take underwater photos. Now that I'm residing in the Philippines, this is the best opportunity to go snorkelling/scuba diving as they've got one of the nicest underwater scenery here.

As I do travel a lot around the world (i.e. land/air), I would love to be able to view another world - the underwater world.

1) I would love to capture how life is underwater, so that I can share with friends/family who are afraid of the water or who can't scuba dive.

2) I would love to be able to capture lightning as I always find them beautiful, yet scary.

3) I would love to capture the whale shark in the Philippines as it's the biggest yet most gentle mammal in the world.

4) Being able to bring the camera to the pool/beach & capture the fun & candid moments with my friends. This is something I find a pity during my last trip to Boracay with my group of friends here I made when I first came to the Philippines to work. They're like family & I do not want to forget the fun times with them even after I leave...

5) Silly shots of my friends & i in the rain

Oops. Merry Christmas!

Haven't been updating much. Was thinking of changing a new web address. We'll see. (:

It irritates me to no end when I automatically stir from my sleep at 6:30am daily & I'm not due to get up yet!

I would always go back to sleep & that would end up in me waking up late. GAH!

Do you have a body clock? If yes, what time is that?

Time flies & it's December now. 24 more days to Christmas. Yes, I'm spending Christmas & New Year here I suppose. I don't think I'll go back to Singapore.

Just a blink of an eye & I'm already 7 months into my 2-year contract here. 17 more months to go. I wonder where would I be posted to next. Hmm.

Life's been really hectic for me with lotsa ups & downs. I would have to say career-wise I'm progressing & loving it. I've learnt so much over the short span of 7 months & I am thankful for this opportunity.

People around me take really good care of me - e.g. Anthony, Polly, Rommell, Odette & Marthyn. All of them treat me like a baby. Pout. Okay, I'm the youngest of the lot, but still! But without these friends, I won't be able to keep my sanity.

Alright, my update will end here for now. Till then.

Cheers.

I have finished the 1st book of Twilight. Rushed home after work to continue on it. Reckon it's the first time I took less than a day to finish a book.

Now, turn me into a vampire...

I know I'm slow. I didn't intend to start on the book at all, but Polly decided that I should read it so that I could accompany her to watch New Moon this weekend.

& omg, I am stuck to the book. It is amazing & now I can't wait to rush home to finish the 1st book, which I only have less than ¼ left.

Test post.

One of the many test results is back. No cancer cells were found in her bones. I really hope it isn't lung cancer & that the tumour in the head will not lead to some cancer crap.

I can remember vividly the day she asked if I can stay in Singapore as opposed to going to Manila. That was a week before I was meant to shift here for 2 years. I saw the disappointment in her eyes when I said "I can't." My heart shattered at that very moment... I saw tears welled in her eyes as she tried so hard to hold them back. She gave me a really tight hug & not wanting to let go of me thinking that it might prevent me from flying off at that very moment. I reckon a part of her believed that by holding onto my hand & not letting go, I will remain where I am, I won't have to get posted overseas...

If anything happens, I will fly back asap & probably request to work from the Singapore office if possible. I want to spend as much time with her before all's too late..

I miss my granny...

Granny, I've been sending my prayers to whoever's listening. Please be well & stay happy. Fight away those demons & ensure that nothing cancerous can be found in you. You're such a wonderful person & you don't deserve all these. I'm sorry if I've disappoint you by not staying. I really do miss you. I miss the laughters at home, you arguing and/or chatting with Gramps, you taking care of me, you wanting to cook my favourite food for me all the time, & the list goes on. You don't have to take care of me anymore because I'm old enough to do so my own. I've lived out here in Manila for 6 months now & coping fine. Do not worry for me. It's time for me to take care of you now. Your duty of taking care of everyone else in the family is over for it's time you should enjoy your life. Please get healthier & I'll see you end of the month. I love you.

Today has been a rather emotional day for me...

My Monday blue carried forward itself to Tuesday & now Wednesday. I've been feeling gloomy since.

Perhaps it's all the things that are bugging me. I don't know. I want & need good news. I need a clear mind. I need to sort out my thoughts.

I've been using work to distract myself from the feelings I might feel. Maybe my teammates called me workaholic for a reason. I'm using work to escape from reality.

I don't want to think because I know all that I've been putting behind the door would come at one shot & I'll feel the pain.

I hope someone hears my prayers & give me the strength & good news that I need right now.

I can only be this strong emotionally because I'm starting to feel I'm eating myself inside.